All posts tagged: thinking

“I will do it tomorrow”

I am sure that the title sounds almighty familiar. It is also the very definition of procrastination. A few posts ago, I had talked about the book (and film) American Psycho written by Brett Easton Ellis and one particular theme: Emptiness (which can be found here). I don’t know why but I love dark themes and have really been getting into them lately. Yesterday, I also watched Nightcrawler, which by the way, is an AMAZING film. So, as like my recent posts, I’ll tell you a story (sort of). I bought an academic diary at the beginning of July. Strangely enough, the diary corresponded to the next week – it was like it was meant to be. And then, I had an epiphany. I realised it had been a year or almost a year since I had wrote in such diary and planned my days here and there like I had almost always done whilst in education. I forgot how good it felt to tick things off the list and to get something done because it …

The future of relationships

I was going to name this post “things I don’t really understand”, but there’s just TOO many things that I don’t understand. I have only begun thinking about this recently. It may or may not appeal to where you are right now, but hear me out for a moment. Because I feel that in this generation that we’re living in, a sense of family and companionship is being lost. So it becomes quite worrying actually, how the next generation will pan out. In particular, I want to talk about the use of the term “partner” that is increasingly being used. Honestly, I dislike the term – the meaning is lacking and quite unromantic to me. It’s crazy even for me to describe it that way since my close friends know that I loathe public affection, because I grant the excess as, well, too much to handle in public really. I cringe at the sight of it…but that’s just me. I asked two of my close friends what partner really means, and its distinction from wife …

We are all completely in denial

Aside from the fact that we don’t feel good in our skin at times, we rather like to knock it into our brains an excuse to risk exposing us from the truth. Recently, I finished reading a book on my kindle, The Rosie Project, by Graeme Simsion. The main protagonist, Don Tilman suffers from Aspergers Syndrome and as a result, lives life through schedules, lists and rules which appears to limit any freedom. However, how can there be any fun, any risk if we do not break these rules? If anything, Don Tilman is the very definition of anti-hero. There is indeed a particular passage in the book that is so bittersweet, heartbreaking and lovely all at the same time, and one that doesn’t just summarize the book brilliantly, but is true to every one of our insecurities: ” And it dawned on me that I had not designed the questionnaire to find a woman I could accept, but to find someone who might accept me”. (page 246) Deep huh? My heart sank a bit …

Change is the way I feel good

A lot can happen in a year even though it seems that each year that goes past as we get older, goes quicker like sand that seeps through our fingers. In the past 12 months or so, I could not tell you enough of the changes that I have been feeling mentally and emotionally. That is not to say changes can’t be physical either but really, I am so positive that all of you have woken up in a different light many times in your life (if you have not, you are either lying or about to experience it soon enough smiley face). I could also not tell you enough that I have had the most riveting, and emotionally challenging year that was full of the tears, the laughters, that feeling of heart-in-stomach as well as distress. How often does it happen that in the end there might have actually been nothing to worry about in the first place? Yep, happens all the time but we humans, just have to deal with our emotions being …