Year: 2015

Everything I Believe In, In One Place

Did anyone ever watch Daria growing up? I did although I definitely didn’t 100% grasp all the sarcasm and culture it mocks until I watched the full series some years later. I urge everyone to watch the series and observe the idiocy of a society that appears to know nothing, or at least nothing beneficial. Although an animation, with exaggerations on stereotypes, it does not stray away from reality, the result of alienation. Daria, is the anti-heroine. …what does it mean to be the anti-heroine exactly? To me, an anti-hero(-ine) is one who goes out to do something, not because it’s “right” or “wrong” but because it’s out of their own will. It is FOR themselves without the intended heroic gesture of “doing good”, “being righteous”. And so, it is less forced. You are not liable to “save the world” because you are a known hero, but you are liable to making yourself the hero of your OWN story. At least, that’s how it should be. Except I don’t know much people who are like that or …

Depth > Surface

I finally finished reading American Psycho last night and felt somewhat sad when it ended. What’s that? Yes, I felt sad for a satiric-psychotic-serial-killer who desperately needed help and some sort of friendship and loving that he couldn’t feel because he was so numb. So numb from pain and alienation if that were even possible. Mind-blowing. Because I can’t find anything more beautiful than being able to feel, to really see the world.  And now, I am almost finished with reading We Were Liars by E. Lockhart. Could my perception of the world be changing anymore than it is? All I can say is that I did not see the twist coming…damn. But i suppose that’s the point…beautiful moments are just moments…they stay in that time frame. It was beautiful and it was in the past. Memories can be haunting. I used to read a lot as a kid. Went to the library every week with my mother and would take out four or five books at a time to read. Then, I stopped around age …

Patient Patient (Hypocrisy)

They say patience is a virtue. But how many of us are patient all the way through situations? You know, people who give good advice are often, victims themselves, and by all means, known as “hypocrites”. We also self-diagnose or at least I do this a lot. I know what my problems are, and perhaps how to solve it (or at least have an idea) but it misses the middleman, the flesh…the thing that holds it all together. Maybe this is what can also be termed “patience”? The very opposite of a breaking point, a breakdown? Many people will understand being patient as in a sense, waiting and letting something take its time. It also suggests stillness – less of an urgency but more on the reflective. A clear head. Now consider this: being a patient.